Me Time???

Not much to blog about today. I had a pretty uneventful day. I'm really missing the girlfriend. I downloaded some more music tonight. I am working on a couple of mixes right now. I took a nice long bath. I finally had some relaxing me time. To bad it only comes in the tub or in my car to and from work. I read some more of my book while in the tub. I am about to retire to the bedroom to read some more and get some zzzzzzz's.

What does that mean???

I consider myself to be pretty smart but at times I feel dumb. Those times are usually when my girlfriend or someone I know uses a word and I don't know what it means. So, I decided I needed to do something about it. I know some people that are doing 365 days of self portraits and i thought I could do similar. I don't have a camera to do that but I do have a dictionary. So, I decided I would start learning a new word a day. So far the words are mirth and arrears. If anyone has any good words for me let me know. I am setting this as one of my resolutions this year. I feel this is going to be the year of even more new and exciting things.

NO TIME!!!

No time to blog. I spent all night downloading music and I now need to go to bed.

Stress Free Weekend!

I can't believe the weekend is almost over. What a beautiful day it is out! I really hope it stays nice. I am so ready for spring.

Now back to the drama that has been my life lately. So, my ex had his friend pick up jr. so he spent the weekend with his dad. So for now things have calmed down some. But all of this affected me, jr and also sexy. When I arrived at her place Friday night I was drained but also knew serious conversation needed to take place. We tried before dinner and it didn't go so well. I wanted to leave but I stayed and I am so glad I did. After our dinner we had a great talk. We talked about the ex and that situation, we talked about us, we talked about the future and many other things. It was great. I felt so much closer to her afterwards. I am very lucky to have a girlfriend that believes as strongly about communication as I do.

The weekend turned out to be great. Sexy and I spent lots of time just relaxing. Saturday we got up late and then went to the corner diner to get some breakfast. I had had a dream about French Toast and I wanted some badly. The food wasn't the greatest but it was cozy and sexy and I planned out our upcoming trip to Missouri. We went to my square dancing class. We have been learning a lot lately and it is getting harder to keep some of the calls straight but I am hanging in there and I think I am one of the ones that has it together in the group. We then went out to eat at Ghandi. It is a nice Indian restaurant that we have went to before. The food was good as usual. I definitely reccommend getting the samosas. They are really tasty. We then came home last night and sexy did some organizing while I knit and then we watched a very bad movie. I was so sleepy and it was definitely not holding my interest so I kept dozing off. Then this morning we layed and layed around in bed.....well ok that wasn't all we did! We finally got up and now I am home and I have to get some work done before sexy comes over tonight to watch the last episode of the L- word. Right now I am feeling very relaxed and ready to tackle the week ahead.

PLEASE???

So, I spent most of last night arguing with the ex. Then when I was in bed last night he called again and begged me to reconsider. I didn't back down. I felt so strong. I of course of stood up to him before but it was definitely a good feeling last night. I hope he is getting my message. Then I got a call this morning. Yes, it was him and he decided he was going to take his son and his friend was going to pick him up. Then I checked my email today and got this LONG, drawn out email about me not being considerate of him and our son and blah, blah. What a load of SHIT!!! I kindly replied back that if you want to spend time with you son you will get him when you can, and if you don't it is on you and not me!

A load of crap!!!

Shit!!! I hate men.....ok well just one in particular. That would definitely be the ex. He has been telling me all week that he is going to take his son and then keeps saying it will be the next day. Bullshit!!! It is his weekend to get his son and I kindly informed him he needed to come get him if he wanted to see him. No, he wants me to keep accommodating his ass. Well, no more!!! If he really wants to see his son he will come and get him. And then he had the nerve to tell his son he might not see him this weekend because mommy won't bring him to Kankakee. That is when I took the phone and hung up on his ass!!! I am not going to allow him to talk bad about me to my son. My son has finally cried himself to sleep over this whole mess. It really sucks that he has to pay the price for his dad being a jerk.

Sex, Alcohol, and Smoking!!!

As you remember yesterday was a complete disaster and unfortunately today wasn't much better. I have been so tired lately and every night I say I will get to bed on time or early and it never happens. Last night I actually did get into my bedroom on time and then I started to look at my square dancing definitions. Yes!!!! I really did!!! I actually was pretty excited to see how much I had learned. Then I called sexy as I do every night. I know early love!!! No answer. Left a message, figured she still didn't feel like talking. Rolled over and went to sleep. Then at 3am....yes 3, i was woken up by Jr. He had a nightmare and wanted to sleep with me. He seemed upset so I said yes. Little did I know saying "yes" would be the end of my sleeping for the night. Oh, he fell right back to sleep but his snoring kept me up. He is only 6 i kept thinking. How can a six year old snore so bad? Then I thought....just one more thing in which he is just like his dad. VERY SAD!!! When I was with his father I actually wore ear plugs. That was in the beginning of our marriage when we still slept in the same bed! I am just so thankful that sexy doesn't snore!
So, you can definitely say I was dragging today. My coffee, my free iced coffee and my 2 cans of coke didn't even help that much either! By 3pm when I got off work I was half a sleep. Decided on the way home a cocktail is what I needed. Got home, fixed a quick dinner and a drink. Was texting sexy about being tired and feeling stressed. She suggested I take a nap, which i can't do. I can't sleep at night if I do. So, I told her I was going to have a drink and a smoke instead. She was a bit shocked I think at the smoke. She asked me when I started smoking....i said I haven't....just like to smoke when i feel like it. I then told her that 3 things help me to relax when stressed, sex, alcohol, and smoking. Since sex is out i must do the other two, and I did. I am starting to feel better already!!!