Society?

Why do we live in a World where everyone else decides what is best for us or what is right or wrong. I am talking about the expections or rules that society puts on us. Today while talking to Connie this issue came up. We were talking about gender and how as a lesbian I am suppose to fit into some category....femme, butch, boi.....etc. I was telling her how this bugs me. I am not a femme.....never was but I definitely wouldn't classify myself as butch or boi. I guess for me it is important to just be me. One should be who they want to be. Who they feel comfortable being. When i told her this I was shocked that she said she feels society pressures her to have certain characteristics that she does not want to have. Yes, even straight people have pressure put onto them by society. Why is it that a women can't wear mens clothes without someone staring at them or a women not shave her legs without someone pointing it out. This is what the focus of my next few blogs will be about. Please share your thoughts and opinions.

A new post? Why yes it is!

Things have been crazy lately. Last week sexy had this big curtain project that she was feeling bad about so I helped her out as much as I could. That included a big chunk of my day on Thursday and all day Saturday and Sunday. We did start out the weekend having a good time at the Alma event of Friday night. Sexy and I double dated with Charles and Hugo to go to the fundraising event. It was nice to get out and have adult conversation. I got up early on Saturday to come back to my place because my new refridgerator was arriving. After that I had just enough time to pick up sexy and head downtown to work on curtains. The rest of my weekend included lots of pinning (my poor fingertips), some measuring, cutting and a little ironing. At 8:15 sunday night the curtains were done!

Monday was one of those days to forget. I was having a Debbie Downer day. One of those "I can't believe this is my life and it is ever going to get any better" days. I then did some tutoring in the afternoon and then I took sexy up to Vogue to get foam for another of her projects. They didn't have it but it was ordered so i guess it wasn't a total waste of time, although i felt a phone call could have taken care of that too. Sexy then helped to motivate me and helped me with a list of things to do the next day.

Then yesterday as I was enjoying my breakfast and reading the paper I glance at my horoscope. It said something about good job opportunity day. I decided I should take some time to do that inbetween my cleaning. I am glad I did. By chance I contacted a school who is looking for a teacher and they wanted me to fax off my resume. I did that and shortly after I got a call and it looked like a CPS number so I answered thinking it was the principal of the school I just faxed my resume too. No, it was a different school that I had sent my resume to a few weeks ago. They wanted to interview me. So, now I have an interview Thursday and maybe the possibility of more. That is exciting!

Nasty Smell!!!

I had a good time in Iowa. It is nice to get away from my stresses. Going back to Iowa is just not the same anymore. My parents have moved which is fine by me. I like their new place. I think it mostly feels weird because I made a lot of trips to Iowa this summer and they were never for good things. I think in time that feeling will go away. Like with any trip to Iowa there is always bad news. This time about my dad. It seems that his kidneys are not functioning like they should, which we have known, so the doctor is going to start him on dialysis. My dad was very distant and very anti-social when I was there. I am very worried about him and my mom.


On my way back from Iowa I was thinking about my job situation and everything else. I decided I was not going to get down and try to be more positive when I get back home. I was looking forward to seeing sexy and going dancing with her. Well, that faded quickly when I walked into my apartment and it smelled rotten. My refrigerator/freezer had quit working at some point in time over the weekend. Everything was ruined!!! What a mess! I didn't get any sympathy from my landlord and I wasn't expecting any from my girlfriend since she was dealing with her own stresses. My mom called me with a small problem and I yelled at her saying it was nothing compared to mine. (don't worry I apologized the next day) What I wasn't expecting in this situation is what I got. Sexy listened to me and told me that this is really not that big compared to what could have happened or what has been happening in my life. Then she gave me a nice herbal cocktail. We decided to skip dancing and have sex instead! Definitely a good alternative! It is great to have a girlfriend who cares!

weekend and dancing

Spent the weekend with the girlfriend. It always amazes me how the weekend flies by. We slept, worked, read, cooked, danced, played games. It was good as usual. Monday is was back to finding a job. Still really torn about what I want to do but I feel a lot better now than I did a few weeks ago. I feel like I have some strong possibilities now and I know one thing for sure. I wouldn't go back and work my former employer even if they begged me to.

Monday night sexy and I went Contra dancing. I have went contra dancing once before last Christmas time. Since then I have been taking square dancing so I was hoping this time I would like contra dancing much more than I did before and I was right. I loved it! Everyone there was very nice. I had so much fun. I can't wait to go back again.