Kidney Stone!

Before last night I could say that it had been 5 years since I had a kidney stone. Not anymore! I was very rudely woken up at 2:30 last night by one of the darn things. For anyone who has ever had a kidney stone you know they can be very painful. I have a very high pain tolerance but as I was laying there last night all i could think about was how hard it was going to be to drive myself to the hospital with these 2 little kids at 3:00 in the morning in as much pain as I was in. I have passed about 7 kidney stones in my life and last night now makes 8. I usually tough it out for as long as I can and then go to the hospital. Last night I just toughed it out and thankfully it was a small one and it passed within a couple of hours. It is not just the pain. With it comes extreme nausea and a horrible urge to urinate. Overall, a very uncomfortable experience. It is funny how this came just a week after I was thinking about my last kidney stone attack. Fourth of July 2002 was a rough one. I passed 5 stones in two days. I will never forget that. I am just hoping that last night is it. Unfortunately, if history repeats itself there are more and probably soon. My kidney stones tend to travel in packs!!!

IOWA

Thought I would blog now since i will be heading to Iowa in the morning. My dad has been in the hospital and since I have Jr. this weekend I thought Iowa would be a good place to go. It is always nice to see my family. Right now sexy and I are at a weird place so it also seems like a good time to take a break from my crazy life in Chicago. Sexy and I talked on AIM last night and she is still really angry at me....which I understand. HELL i am angry at myself so I can only imagine how angry she is at me. I am realizing now how much she tried to help me this last year and I didn't listen. Do i ever regret that now! I made the stupidest mistake of my life! I guess it took something this awful for me to wake up and realize i need to make some serious changes. I think many positives will come out of this situation and are already coming out of it. Unfortunately, it may cost me Sexy. Right now she is trying to figure out if she wants to be with me or not. Things have definitely been better and we have been spending more time together but she still has serious doubts. So, right now I am in a waiting game. Waiting to see if she is willing to give us another shot or if it is over with us.

I'm Back!!!

I finally got my DSL all hooked up and working. My phone line was turned on today and it only took me a few hours to get everything hooked up. It has been about a week since I blogged last so I will just hit the highlights in my life.

Saturday, Sexy, her dad and I all went to a party in honor of her friend who just got married. We weren't there that long and then we took her dad to his motel near midway. He had a very early flight. Sexy and I then headed back to her place. Sunday sexy and I braved the heat and went to the Brandi Carlile concert at the Taste. It was HOT!!! At least we wore sunblock! After the concert we went and found some shade and then decided on what food we wanted to treat ourselves to at the Taste. We had Mango cumin-dusted fries with tamarind chutney, a vegetable somosa, hummus shirazi, and finally we had strawberry and lemon italian ice. I think we got a lot of variety for our 16 tickets, and the food was all good. By this time we were hot and getting tired but we decided to head to Millinium Park and walk through the water. We got a little bit wet and it was nice and cool for the ride home on the train.

Monday night was a square dance. I was so glad when I got there and found out it was going to be in the basement where it is air conditioned. It still got plenty warm in there with about 30 people dancing. I had a good time and then headed over to sexy's. I had some ice cream then it was off to bed because we had to be in Hyde Park by 9 am on Tuesday.

After sexy's dentist appointment we went to the health food store in Hyde Park and then we went to visit one on sexy's friends in Hyde Park. I had a good time listening to her and her friend talk about books and other things. We then walked to the record store. Sexy got some good deals on a couple of records and I got hit on! We then headed to Chinatown for tofu and lunch. Lunch was great. I had pineapple chicken with shrimp fried rice and it came in a cut out pineapple. Pretty cool! We both had Tapioca smoothies. Different but very good! I am definitely going to have to go to Chinatown again soon. It was almost like taking a vacation right in chicago!

Independence Day!!!

Happy 4th of July everyone!!!

This 4th of July was full of firsts for me. Yesterday i had a job interview downtown and afterward I decided to go to Grant Park and hang out. So, I pulled out my blanket and spent the next 8 hours there. I read 1 1/2 books, got to enjoy some of the Taste, took a nap and of course saw the fireworks. There were thousands of people around. It was pretty crazy. Thanks to Caitlin for stopping by and keeping me company for a while. I ended up getting home at about 12:30 last night after I fought the crowd and then rode my bike home in the rain.

Today I slept in. Lounged around the house, watched some flicks on my computer and decided I should probably get out and do something instead of mope around the house all day.....and I am so glad I did!!! I decided to treat myself to a movie. This was the first time I ever went to a movie by myself. I went to see Knocked Up. It was hilarious!!! I am so glad I picked that one to go to. There are so many movies I want to see that are out now. I will definitely have to treat myself to a movie again soon. After the movie I went to the parking garage, 3rd floor, to get my car and I looked out at the city and you could see fireworks everywhere. I spent the next 20mins or so just watching them. It was amazing and beautiful. I was even more glad at this point that I decided to get out!

Things I have learned!!!

Things I have learned in the past two weeks!!!

1. Do not keep things from the one's you love.
2. Sometimes you have to humble yourself and admit you don't know everything.
3. Sometimes you have to ask for help.
4. Sometimes giving too much of yourself is not healthy.
5. First steps in how to handle money.
6. Do things that are important to you so you don't have regrets later.
7. The importance of being a proud gay woman.
8. That I am a wonderful person.....and quite sexy too!!!
9. The Indigo Girls ROCK!!!
10. Always and I mean ALWAYS.......WEAR SUNSCREEN!!!!!!!!!!

Bike Riding and the EX!!!

My internet hasn't been shut off yet so I thought I would blog. I would have to say that yesterday was a nice day. Jr, sexy and I went for a bike ride along the lake front. It was beautiful out. It seemed like fun was had by all. Even by Jr. who wrecked his bike but with some convincing got back on to finish the ride. After the ride we went to the beach where the 3 of us dipped our feet into the lake. Jr. was more daring and got in up to his waist. Sexy, left and Jr. and I rode our bikes back to the car then headed home to grab all of his things he is taking to his dad's. We fought traffic and met up with his dad. I have to say my ex has really come around lately. We have been talking a lot more and it seems we have become friends. He isn't up to his tricks. Of course, time will tell. Sometimes I can be a bit too trusting. He is proving himself though. He stopped fighting me on the divorce and custody. He is paying childsupport and has a plan to pay debts off to me. Something else.....he was really there for me when my grandfather died. I was so upset and was finding it hard to talk about. It was hard to talk to the people closest to me for many reasons. But he made the time to make sure I was ok. That really meant a lot to me. We always did make better friends so I hope that will be the case.
Last night I spent the night at sexy's. Not sure where we stand right now and we definitely have a lot to talk about but I am enjoying spending time with her.

Bye, bye internet!

I am getting my internet cut off today so it may be a little while before I blog again. I had a good day with Jr. We got up early and biked to Grand ave. where we caught the bus to Navy Pier. We then spent the morning and some of the afternoon at the Children's museum. I enjoyed watching Jr. play. I have to say the best was when we made our little miniature house in the building area. I love to build things! Jr. said it was his favorite part too. I am so glad he had such a good time. We then ate lunch and then loaded our bikes on the Chicago bus and headed back to the West side. We then rode our bikes back home from Chicago Ave. I have really enjoyed bike riding and it has been extra special the last couple of days to ride bikes with me son. Tomorrow we are meeting Caitlin and going on a bike ride with her. Jr has really been wanting to see her and he asked last night when we were riding around Humboldt park if Caitlin had a bike. I told him yes and he then decided we all had to go on a ride together. It should be fun. Jr and I went to my square dancing class. Everyone enjoyed meeting him and he was so well behaved. We then came back home and did some light cleaning and then we started to watch a movie together. He fell asleep so now I am just messing around on the internet. Hope to write soon.